perhaps its time to move on

I am a firm believer that in fact I am a very unique guy. I embody a number of great qualities: smart, funny, interesting, curious, energetic, etc. I am so certain that to those that can recognize these charateristics and are able to appreciate them, I am a rarity, difficult to find, but once found forever to cherish..

It is somewhat discouraging when I find out that Juliee is wavering, not knowing what to do with me. I agreed not to take that as an insult, but there is simply no easy way to reconcile her reaction with one of those that know how to appreciate me.

This inevitably raises the question -- if she does not know how to appreciate me, should I even sell short. I know that I like her quite a lot, but fundamentally I do not believe she is THE only one that I will be attracted to. Nor is she the only one that fits me.

Perhaps really, I should not take her too seriously. Perhaps really, I should continue being who I had been before my trip to China -- the playful, noncommittal guy who radiated, shined and was loved by many. After all, if things work out with Julie, Great (but I am rather uncertain as she has seen every side of me but still does not budge -- seriously what more can I do?) But if not, I as always am loved and will love as long as the sun still rises.