First day of 2005

It's the first day of 2005. Me here at the Caribbou coffee in northwest dc. listening to the incessant music and sound of murmur by norah jones looking into the vacant thinking about the vacant why the hell is this world progressing in such a strange fashion letting no stop of the ticking of the clock and letting no mercy to the sons of god this oughta end this oughta give way to the begining of time this oughta cease to exist and this oughta let my time stop running away this ougha give me inspirations for life this oughta make me know what's right and what's wrong and this oughta show me why we exist on this strange planet called the earth and why we do what we do and why we are who we are. Oh my all mighty god we exploit our weeny brains to decipher all these eternal questions you have laid out for us but you are not merciful enough to lay out the answers. we strive in our search of the answer. we cannot find another way to make peace with life and we are simply lost in the endless pursuit.
sobbering up slowly I find myself. perhaps that helps me to have a new year resolution. stop all the indulgence and make yourself a responsible man.